Once upon a time I was an Assistant Language Teacher. 

It was a pretty sweet gig, I must admit. I mostly played games with the kids, who were all very cute, my workload was simple, the hours were easy, and I had a five-minute commute! 

I was also terribly dissatisfied. 

A week after I left that job and joined Wahl+Case, I got chatting with a programmer who’d started his own company, and we realized we had a shared history of teaching English in Japan. Only when I complained, he disagreed completely. 

“Oh it was great! I had no boss, no KPIs, the freedom to do whatever I wanted,” he said.

I couldn’t help but laugh, since that was exactly why I’d hated it.

Picture me, a new college grad, no background in English education, going up to the certified teachers with years of experience and asking them what we should do for class—only to be told, “Oh, anything’s fine.”

What do you mean “anything’s fine”? Anything?? This isn’t art class, I’m responsible for the education of children! “Anything” is not fine!! 

In my panic, I scoured the internet, reading ESL articles and ALT diaries searching for some kind of structure. Then I designed detailed lesson plans to distribute to the teachers, and prepared backup activities in case something went wrong—but it never did! It always worked out just fine, the kids and I had a great time, and the teachers never complained. In fact many of them seemed surprised that I’d put so much preparation into teaching the numbers one to ten. 

But even after two years, when I knew all the activities and had amassed an impressive collection of laminated flash cards, every single time I’d hear the words “Anything’s fine!” from my teachers, I’d stress out all over again.

As it turns out, my Security score is pretty high at 85%—and once I realized that, everything made so much sense. Without the Security of knowing for sure what my teachers expected from me—without having any clear structure or rules to follow—there wasn’t a thing about that job that could make me satisfied, even after I’d done it for years.

Taylor’s Intrinsic Motivator Report